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Well, well, well…who would have thought? Finally posted a net loss on a Friday and managed to screw it up by Monday!!! Ha! I laugh at myself because I KNOW exactly what I need to do to lose this weight. But, what do I do instead? Go to a bachelorette party, eat to much, drink to much, and spend Sunday hungover laying on the couch eating combos and gummy bears. Great. Way to go! NOT.

So, here I am, dedicating another week to re-losing the lbs I’ve already lost 10 times. I don’t know when it will CROSS MY MIND to just STOP making bad decisions on the weekend. I even went to the gym Saturday BEFORE going to the bachelorette. Didn’t help. Oh, and this weekend is Mother’s Day. That’s gonna go real well.

Can’t be frustrated with myself if I knew exactly what I was doing when I did it, I guess…

Hope you’re all having better weeks!!

Why is it that we only “count” the lbs that are a NET loss? I mean, sure…that tells us all the overall difference in our weight. But I really think that EVERY TIME we have to lose, re-lose pounds-they should count! I bet over the last year I have lost a total of like 100 lbs!!! But only about 45 of them resulted in a net loss =)

The yo yo thing does it to me. I could be 10 lbs on Friday. 12 lbs on Monday. Then back to 10lbs on Friday. So why can’t I count those two lbs?? I mean, I DID lose them!!!

I bet I’ve lost the same 15lbs ten times each over the course of the past year. I’d feel a whole lot better if all of those lbs counted…

HAPPY FRIDAY!

P.S. I’m only half serious about this. lol

it looks like this might be the first week in 3 that I post a net loss. I’ve been yo-yoing for the last three weeks and according to the scales this morning, by Friday I should be back on track with a net loss! Now just to focus thru the bachelorette party I have this weekend and continue on the LOSING path!

I am SO sick and tired of working my butt off ALL week to gain back every ounce I lost between Monday and Friday over Saturday and Sunday. This is what I call “maintaining”. Sure, I can MAINTAIN. No duh!!! But I need to be LOSING. Weekends are SO hard for me, because I am normally 1) out of routine and 2) out of my environment. My plan to combat this is to squeeze in as much extra exercise as I can during the week AND on weekends, and to enlist recruits in my day-to-day life to help me stay accountable on the weekends. If I wouldn’t eat it or drink it on a week day, I shouldn’t eat it or drink it on a weekend!!! The good news is that even after Easter, I woke up this morning 1lb lighter than I was on Friday. Now if I can just keep it up I might actually show a LOSS this coming Friday.

I’m saying “NO-NO!” to the Yo-Yo!!!

Oh look, I came back! lol…there are two good reasons I was MIA. 1) a very good friend was in from out of town for 5 days and 2) I was ashamed of myself. Do either of those count? NO. I am ready to face my own mistakes and move forward. That’s all we can do, right?

So, I wasted 2 weeks of my own timeline. Big dea. All that counts is that we keep moving forward, right? I am faithfully working out 6 days per week, following my self-prescribed eating plan, and am feeling good once again. I never realized how much I count on routines and consistency. If I miss a few days of my ‘normal’ routine, my life becomes a chaotic tragedy. It’s actually sad how emotional, out of control, etc. I get when my “world” is not the way I plan it to be. That’s something other than weight loss related that I need to work on about myself. Who am I kidding? I’m planning to start trying to make babies soon…do I REALLY think THEY will jump on the Suz’s Crazy Pants planning schedule? Probably not.

The job search for me continues, slow and steady. I am still working about 30 hours a week but I am looking for something 40 hours w/ benefits so hopefully something magical comes up sooner rather than later. And if it doesn’t, I’ll make the most of those few extra hours per week!

Glad to be back!

As most people know, The U.S. government is yet to pass our budget and the final, final, final deadline is tomorrow at midnight. If it doesn’t get passed, my husband gets furloughed and won’t get paid til they pass the budget—but don’t worry, he still has to work. It’s so stressful!

The two major issues on the table are Planned Parenthood and the EPA. Really guys, really?

Luckily for my husband and I, we have a savings account and I am still working (albeit part time). Also, he is able to pick up side work as needed. Financially, we will be fine. But what about the HUNDREDS of THOUSANDS of people (over 150,000 in my state alone) who will be without pay? And the possibility of NEVER receiving pay for any of the time they were off? One paycheck missed can sink a family who is living paycheck to paycheck. What is our government THINKING?

MAKE A DECISION!

So, that’s my rant for the day. I am so overwhelmed. Regardless, I’ve eaten right all day and even did 45 mins of cardio BEFORE seeing my trainer. Hoping for a 1lb loss this week. Happy almost Friday!

The worst habit I ever found myself getting into was being SO on top of my eating plan and exercising during the week, losing 2-3lbs per week, then letting go for the weekend and gaining it all back.

1) it is SO unfair that it takes 5 days to lose 2 lbs and only ONE day to gain it back. What kind of crap is that?

2) it is SO unfair that most of our recreational/social activities including GORGING ourselves on disgusting, fat laden foods.

I restarted this process on 03/21/2011. I had two GREAT weekends and was feeling AWESOME. Then last weekend-BAM. Fell off the wagon. Thank goodness it isn’t a far fall, because I’ve done it so many times lol. Today I vow to myself that I no longer am a weekday warrior. This is 7 days a week. Even if it totally sucks.

The bonus is that I know that I can SUCCESSFULLY maintain a weight. So, if I just stay a warrior for a good 5 months I’ll be at my goal weight and I can let go a little.

Until then…weekends are THE DEVIL.

If you tend to use Extra Virgin Olive Oil in your cooking, you need to invest in a MISTO. They’re about $12 at most kitchen goods stores and you can find them on line. It’s a pump mechanism you create tension w/ air by pumping and it turns the olive oil into a misting spray—def. a quick, easy way to cut down on the EVOO you use and to evenly coat things you’re baking, roasting, sauteeing, etc! I love mine!

For the past two years I have worked 3 days per week for a friend who owns her own company. I work the other two days for the school system. Unfortunately, last week her company lost their largest contract. I began sending my resume out immediately in fear of losing my position. Yesterday she told me that she can only afford to pay me one day per week beginning immediately. At first I was angry. Then I was frustrated. Then I was sad. Then I told my husband.

See, my husband is an amazing man. He truly wants me to do whatever makes me happy. He wants to do whatever it takes to MAKE me happy. So, he told me “only good can come from bad”. And I believed him. He followed it up with, “We’re good babe, no worries.” My biggest fear was that a decrease in my income would impact our lifestyle. We’re lucky, we both earn great salaries, live below our means, have savings, and spend money wisely, but definitely have tons of places we can cut expenses. Financially, we WILL be good. No worries. But for me, the thought of having “nothing to do” a few days a week is BAD. I am obsessively planned down to the minute, even on days I have nothing I NEED to do. I find things to do. I can things. I organize, I reorganize. I clean. I volunteer. I do ANYTHING to stay busy. I can’t watch TV for very long. I don’t nap. I am a go, go, go girl.

But-there is good in this. We plan to begin trying to have a baby in July. Neither of my jobs provides me with any type of paid leave, or maternity leave. I do have health insurance through my husband. But no benefits of my own. Now I can apply for full time jobs with organizations that provide things like paid time off, maternity leave, flex spending accounts, 401ks, etc.

I will have some down time to gather my thoughts, apply for jobs, work out a little extra, and do things I’ve had on my to do list for months. Visit with old friends. See my sisters new apartment. Maybe get a facial, who knows.

I had a job interview today, and it went well. But they are doing A LOT of interviews.

Also, last night. I was sad. I was scared. I was worried. I didn’t eat, though. I had one 153 calorie beer, and 2 thin mints-and cut myself off. I still stayed under my calories. Which I am proud of.

So, I guess my point is this. 1) I love my husband. 2) I am proud of not ‘healing’ myself with food. 3) Everything will be okay. Because only good can come from bad.

I am feeling proud of myself today.

1) I have officially tracked all of my food on Spark People for one week. And I am not ‘forgetting’ to put anything in.

2) I completed the first day of the 1/2 marathon training today. I was supposed to run 2 miles but I only ran 1, then walked THREE.

3) I haven’t had one, unplanned, unhealthy snack all week =)

I think it’s important to be proud of things. So, today-I AM PROUD.